Results inconclusive. Brain activity elevated, but only somewhat. No signs of disorder, psychological or biological. And, he's happy to note, the homemade EEG worked perfectly — a few stray electric sparks from rushed welding aside. A week ago Reed would have been doubting the results, would have poured over the data printouts for days to follow, searching for an error he might have missed, doubting fundamentally that anything could be this easy. He'd never been successful because anything came naturally to him, he'd made it this far in life because of that very instinct to doubt results, doubt himself, and devote himself to finding the mistake, invariably present. Even now, he could feel that urge still there, like muscle memory. But in fact as he sat there in the lab, letting Stella finish up any other tests or examinations she wanted to run, Reed didn't feel that age old anxiety, that familiar cynicism. He felt... fine. Certain.
"I really have to thank you," he volunteered to Stella, refocusing on the moment in front of him instead of letting his lingering questions send his brain spiraling away into possibilities and whatifs. Reed hadn't even realized that was a bad habit, always preparing for contingencies, until recently. "I don't have a lot of people who could come help me with something this crazy at a moment's notice. I really value our..." Okay, so newfound genius didn't appear to help so much with the emotional or interpersonal. Reed cast around for the right word. Friendship? Camaraderie? Alliance? Good to know all that confidence, all that surety of self couldn't help him when it came to Stella. "...partnership," he decided on, somewhere between neutral and appreciative, although perhaps, as usual, he was underplaying how he felt. As much as things were changing, some things, it seemed, were staying the same.
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